INSPIRATION

i'm back again.

my blog has been sending me texts, e-mails, beeper pages and calling the police trying to report a missing persons report since september... but alas, here i am.

since i was little, i can remember several different things to fill out, mostly for school or just randomness, asking who your

role model is, who you look up to, or who inspires you to be who and what you are. i always thought it was a strange question. obviously everything around you shapes who you are, whether it be a random act of kindness, something beautiful you see that you wish you could take captive and put in your pocket forever (and hopefully remember to remove when you wash your jeans), or just a small detail about how your mom made your favorite sandwich that you now do to this day. i mean, if i were to accept an award for being alive and needed to acknowledge those who made me who i am, i'd have so many people and things to thank that they would start playing the STFU music and i'd have to cut it short, and wouldn't be anywhere close to thanking everyone who could have made this brilliant being, known as bridget brown, possible.

when it boils down to the bare inspiration and sculpting of who i am... my mother and grandmother introduced me to art straight out of the womb, my brother introduced me to all the great music i might have never heard, my father introduced me to subtle and sarcastic humor that i so religiously practice, and the world introduced me to everything else that is what i is.

point being, don't leave it to the rearing of your childhood to magically create the path to your self/being/future. sometimes, when you are a fresh breed of 26 years old, you need some good people to light a fire under your as

s, so you will get off the back burner and go running so far away from that place you were sitting that was just burning into an oblivion. this illustrates the past three days of my life.

while taking me home the other day, my boyfriend decided to give me a good talking to about just taking photographs of whatever. at the time, i totally tried to argue it, but it stuck with me. and tonight, my good friend al shepard (of blueprint fame) told me that my old blog was good and my writing was good. and i got into a discussion with him about how i admire his will to keep updating.

so, this post is for them. for years i've

just been too scared to put any real feelings or thoughts so out in the open... i second guess what i write, read it over a couple trillion times, delete, edit, eventually post it and reread it at least a few more times. simply put, i'm scared. but what is there to be scared of?

if a grown ass woman can stuff a dead octopus up her lady hole, pop it out, and post it on the internet (as my co-worker so graciously showed me tonight)(it's gross - i urge you not to google it) -- then i can make an update about something real on this stupid blog.

since i'm back in the blog game, i fully intend on blogging some of my random stories, rants from working in a crappy pizza shop, and so much more... stay tuned.

as usual, i cannot leave you, the non-viewer, empty handed. here is an mp3 for you to enjoy!

THE CLOUD NOTHINGS

they are from ohio, so i'm obligated to like at least one of their songs, such as this one:

HEY COOL KID

FALL IS HERE!

i love fall... because fall means my birthday and unlike most assholes, i don't care about getting older. it's another fucking year i'm alive... that's awesome! also, my birthday this year is pretty epic, it being on 10/10/10 and all. i will be spending my holiday in Chicago this year which will be also awesome! ...until i come home to my practically empty paycheck 'cause i had to call off 4 days for my epic birthday weekend in Chicago. (yay, life!) however, in my humble opinion, happiness, fun, friendships and celebrations of life events trump money any day... even if it means i can't afford new jeans for another month.

anyways, still working on my site. almost done, but no one reads this, so it's really not a pressing issue if i give you(who?) a date when it will be done(soon).

so in lieu of this, i give you my favorite song right now (it will change in a week or two):

DEERHUNTER - HELICOPTER

i heard this song a few weeks ago on SIRIUS XM U while parking, in an irritated fit, outside my boyfriend's apartment (i had to park a few blocks away, so totally stupid, i know). anyways, the song brought me back down to earth where it's okay to park a few blocks away from your destination, and life isn't so bad. however, it reminded me of something...

i'm still not sure what, but the best i can come up with is if the lead singer of deerhunter, bradford cox, let nina persson of the cardigans sing instead, it probably would have been the best track on the cardigan's gran turismo

and you are thinking, 'what an interesting thought', of course. 'cause, you know what, it is. i'm sorry your brain didn't come up with that. actually, i'm not sorry. i worked, went to walmart and bought a giant floor lamp, put it together, and that thought came into my brain. boom. i'm pretty much talking to myself, so i declare myself the winner of awesome thoughts.

anyways, when i was in high school, i used to drive upstate to visit my boyfriend at what i've always referred to as "car school". i listened to that cardigans album while driving that tedious drive (i would switch between that and dj shadow), and it reminds me of those road trips, by myself, going through the middle of nowhere at night and admiring the stars i never get to see, thanks to living in the city. as old people say, it reminds me of a simpler time, where apparently it was easier to go outside the city and look at stars and planets and the unknown.

so, i leave you with this... my favorite song from gran turismo --

THE CARDIGANS - ERASE/REWIND

ONE & TWO

(FILM)

(DIGITAL)

http://onmute.org/FILM/

http://onmute.org/FILM/

OH HAI

it's been a long process, but i've been working my little butt off trying to get this website together. i have one official album set up and about three notebooks full of notes of what i'd like to do/change.

i put some links up to other blogs. blogs by friends and locals and then the blogs that are part of blog radio on sirius XMU that i enjoy listening to while driving around (to and from work). i wonder how these blogs get ahold of these songs that are about to hit fame (aka being on our independent indie radio station or in a car commercial) before they get there. and speaking of which, "home" by edward sharpe and the magnetic who gives a shits just came on itunes. i heard this on sirius XMU and played the shit out of it, i loved it so much. now i hear it on the radio.

so, the question is, do i need a radio spot/successful blog or do i need to start delivering pizzas again so i can listen to satellite radio for 5 hours at a time to hear the

new, good shit?

anyways, i'd like to have a blog that combines my photography and crappy art with good music. whatever genre it all may be. without the whiney gripes of everyday life. who needs that? not me!

so, we'll see how it goes.

and don't think i forgot about you. i didn't forget your present. here you go:

the only VAMPIRE WEEKEND song i like, 'CAMPUS':

VAMPIRE WEEKEND - CAMPUS

& BIG BOI - SHUTTERBUGG

BIG BOI - SHUTTERBUGG

SECOND POST

well, it's nearly 7am now... and i'm making another post mostly to see how this layout is working out. (i'm checking it in three browsers 'cause i may or may not be a dork.)

BUT! all is not lost in reading this... i'll give you another present.

TELEPATHE - IN YOUR LINE

i downloaded this song about 12 days ago and this just in... itunes says i've listened to it 34 times.

it's a good'n.

-BB

FIRST POST

it's almost 5am and here i am making my first post. not all that strange considering i've been a night owl since i hit high school. or maybe i'm a backward early bird? whatever.

as my first order of business... i give you a great, cute song:

BAND OF HORSES - I GO TO THE BARN BECAUSE I LIKE THE

(hint: click the photo for the song.)

"well, i'd like to think i'm the mess you'd wear with pride."

great lyric.

great song.

goodnight/day.

-BB